Weight talk

Okay, so I'm going to attempt to talk a bit more about my weight a bit more and how it effects me, although I find it a hard subject to really talk about, but I think it'll be helpful for me.

So, I haven't always been so big, don't get me wrong I was never skinny but I used to be an okay weight until I hit my teens. For some reason I just began to comfort eat more than I ever had done before, it frustrates me that I don't remember much about my teens anymore, but I know that within a couple of years I had ballooned in size.

I was always bullied as a kid, mainly because I was larger than most of my friends, but bizarrely I've always been relatively popular. I had plenty of friends, and plenty of people who loved me, which probably explains why I never felt my weight to be much of an issue. I always think that if it'd bothered me that much, I'd have done something about it by now.

Although, I do suffer from depression, which definitely does play a huge part in my weight. I've had so many chances to shift my weight, but just as I get myself on track and are doing well, my depression always seems to kick back in and I end up eating all sorts and not exercising at all and just generally feel unmotivated.

So yeah, this time I really want this, the past few month I have been getting really frustrated with my weight, but more so myself for letting myself get so big. It all really hit me when I went to go shopping for a new top and I couldn't find anything nice for myself that fit, it didn't help that I only really have the choice of one shop. It doesn't give me much choice at all. The one thing I am aiming for at the end of all this, is to be able to walk into almost any shop, see a top I like, and be able to wear it. In fact, I'm not even too bothered about buying anything, just the feeling of walking into any shop and being able to try clothes on, will feel amazing.

I'm going to post some pictures up here of what weight I am now, and keep track of my progress like that, but I'll do that tomorrow as it's getting late and I have brain death.

So, hi to anyone who is actually reading this :).